On Friday it came up again on She Reads Truth to She Shares Truth. I've been thinking about what I should say. Where my words were led. Last week to put it lightly was a very rough week. I was stuck somewhere in the midst of feeling just.
That I was just making it by
That I was just a mom
That I just wasn't cut out for this
Have you ever been stuck in a just rut?
Through my rough week I continued to pray and kept asking God for help. I finally got out of the rut with some help from Adam and some answered help from God.
Adam took the boys and I out on a date to just get out of the house and have a little renewed Jamerson time. It was most needed and I apologized for the week being crazy and some of my attitude wearing off into him. He sometimes turns into my punching bag when I'm in a crazy mood. Not fair by any means but it's just what happens. God also met me right where I was. Funny how he does that. He chose me. He called me. I am one of His. I am saved through his love and grace. I wasn't just making it by. I made it! The boys were happy, healthy, and cared for. He chose me to be there mama, and that is so humbling in itself. Even when it feels like I'm failing I'm their mama and He chose it that way. This also goes hand in hand with the fact that with help from Him I am cut out for anything I do.
I have to take the time to remember that I am not defined by my circumstances no matter how rough they may be. He is always there. It's easy to place a label on myself. One at God does not call me by but yet I call myself. I need to remember what He calls me and to call myself that as well.
Monday, June 30, 2014
Friday, June 20, 2014
One-Handed Master and A Case of the Paci Monster
Before I even start this post I love my boys to death and I'm not complaining one bit about staying home with them. It's the greatest job I could ever have and I would not change it for the world. Now that that's covered...moving on.
I have become a one-handed master. Now get your head out of the gutter, I'm a mommy of two let's be real. 90-95% of the time Abram is content being worn in my amazing K'tan or is happy in his bouncy/vibrating chair. Otherwise he is having a World War III meltdown. So I get to put a baby on my hip and go about my normal routine while still caring for Allen. Why do I feel like this is part of a county song, well anyways. The time that I am the best one-handed master is while I'm trying to get Abram down for a nap and I'm gently patting him to sleep and Allen wants me to read a story. Yep, I've got this routine down pat. Abram's current napping area is a blanket laid out on the loveseat.
Don't go juding ya'll. He's still super tiny. When he sleeps he is out, and I'm never too far away to keep an eye on him. We do have a pack and play that I could put him in, but it doesn't have the adjustable levels so it's just not practical right now. That is his set sleeping spot for the time being and it works for us. The other times I'm a pro at doing things one-handed: vaccuuming, cooking, laundry, and of course loving on both the boys at which point I have no hands. If you don't have children and you're reading this imagine with me for a mintue that your dominant hand is tied behind your back aka this would be the baby holding hand and now you get to do everything with your opposite hand. It isn't easy, is it?
Now about this dang paci monster. Abram has been so funny with his pacifiers lately. A short time after he was born we introduced the soothie paci to him. We tried these with Allen and they were the ony pacifiers he took so why not try it out with number two. WRONG!!! I even went and spent which seemed like $15 on a dang wubbanub which was all fine and dandy until Abram starting sucking more on the frog instead of the paci itself. I'm not one to push a paci into a baby by any means, but I could tell that Abram wanted something to help with his sucking motion and the soothie wasn't going to cut it. In comes the Nuk. He takes to it fine and Abram likes that the little ring attached makes it easy for him to pull out on his own. He's discovering how his hand work and it's really cute. So now we have a paci that he likes and so instead of having just one I got and buy four. Great this little is set. Nope. I am now down to three because apparently at night there is a paci monster that likes to hide pacifiers and leaves them somewhere that is impossible to find. Has anyone else had this problem or am I just going a little crazy from sleep deprivation? Well anyways I will be on the hunt for this long lost past, thankfully I have three more that will sufice.
I can't leave this post without some cuteness of the boys.
I have become a one-handed master. Now get your head out of the gutter, I'm a mommy of two let's be real. 90-95% of the time Abram is content being worn in my amazing K'tan or is happy in his bouncy/vibrating chair. Otherwise he is having a World War III meltdown. So I get to put a baby on my hip and go about my normal routine while still caring for Allen. Why do I feel like this is part of a county song, well anyways. The time that I am the best one-handed master is while I'm trying to get Abram down for a nap and I'm gently patting him to sleep and Allen wants me to read a story. Yep, I've got this routine down pat. Abram's current napping area is a blanket laid out on the loveseat.
Now about this dang paci monster. Abram has been so funny with his pacifiers lately. A short time after he was born we introduced the soothie paci to him. We tried these with Allen and they were the ony pacifiers he took so why not try it out with number two. WRONG!!! I even went and spent which seemed like $15 on a dang wubbanub which was all fine and dandy until Abram starting sucking more on the frog instead of the paci itself. I'm not one to push a paci into a baby by any means, but I could tell that Abram wanted something to help with his sucking motion and the soothie wasn't going to cut it. In comes the Nuk. He takes to it fine and Abram likes that the little ring attached makes it easy for him to pull out on his own. He's discovering how his hand work and it's really cute. So now we have a paci that he likes and so instead of having just one I got and buy four. Great this little is set. Nope. I am now down to three because apparently at night there is a paci monster that likes to hide pacifiers and leaves them somewhere that is impossible to find. Has anyone else had this problem or am I just going a little crazy from sleep deprivation? Well anyways I will be on the hunt for this long lost past, thankfully I have three more that will sufice.
I can't leave this post without some cuteness of the boys.
Monday, June 16, 2014
What I Learned :Titus Study
As I went through the book I Titus I got these themes from the book which goes directly with the writings on She Reads Truth.
The Gospel and Godliness
Grace, Mercy & Peace
Above Reproach
Spiritual Mothers
A Peculiar People
Trained by Grace
The Wash of Regeneration
Wasted Words
Love Letter
I can't belive how much I learned from such a short book with only 3 chapters. One thing that stood out to me so much was Titus 3:5 He saved us, not because of works done by us in his rightesnousness, but according to his own mercy. I think in this day and age that can so easily get confused. That if we do good things/deeds that makes us a good Christian. We are saved by God's unfailing grace and the undeserving gift that Jesus Christ paid for us. We are to do good works not to save ourselves, but just to be good people. I also took so much from Titus 2: 1-5 talking about spiritual mothers. My previous post discussed this more. I am branching out and trying to connect with more and more people in my church. I also might have something up my sleeve. I'm still praying about that option though. More details to come later. Lastly, Titus 2: 11-15 which discusses yet again God's amazing grace that he gives to us. In the hustle and bustle of today it can so easily be looked over how truly great His grace is.
Today starts the study of Ruth. I'm very excited to see what I will learn next.
The Gospel and Godliness
Grace, Mercy & Peace
Above Reproach
Spiritual Mothers
A Peculiar People
Trained by Grace
The Wash of Regeneration
Wasted Words
Love Letter
I can't belive how much I learned from such a short book with only 3 chapters. One thing that stood out to me so much was Titus 3:5 He saved us, not because of works done by us in his rightesnousness, but according to his own mercy. I think in this day and age that can so easily get confused. That if we do good things/deeds that makes us a good Christian. We are saved by God's unfailing grace and the undeserving gift that Jesus Christ paid for us. We are to do good works not to save ourselves, but just to be good people. I also took so much from Titus 2: 1-5 talking about spiritual mothers. My previous post discussed this more. I am branching out and trying to connect with more and more people in my church. I also might have something up my sleeve. I'm still praying about that option though. More details to come later. Lastly, Titus 2: 11-15 which discusses yet again God's amazing grace that he gives to us. In the hustle and bustle of today it can so easily be looked over how truly great His grace is.
Today starts the study of Ruth. I'm very excited to see what I will learn next.
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Titus 2:1-5 Spiritual Mothers
A friend of mine directed me to She Reads Truth. I highly recommend the site and to start a plan along with them. On June 2, I started the current plan that is going and we are studying in the book of Titus. After reading today's passage and the email/commentary that is included in the email that I receive daily I really got to thinking.
My spiritual journey has been short yes. In 2012 I wrote about our testimony (Adam and myself) which can be found here. I'm a new Christian, but I don't think that means that I can't be as spiritual and looking to be fed just the same as someone who would be considered an 'old' Christian.
So currently, I am reading my bible and studying Titus, Praying For Boys, Religion Saves, and Jesus Calling. I'm busy to say the least and try and squeeze in as much reading as I can with two littles keeping me extra busy.
So, back to where this all started: Spiritual Mothers. The greatest thing I read from this article and learned is we cannot and should not live and grow in the gospel alone.
When Adam and I attended CCC we had a small group and had others to help keep us accountable. I truly think that my Spiritual Mother at that time was Heather. She was the welcoming face to the church when Adam and I felt like all hope was lost. Again refer back to our testimony. If I needed advice I seeked out Heather. She was a more mature Christian than I was and I felt like I had a lot that I could learn from her. Now having moved out of Zion I'm trying to figure out who my Spiritual Mother is. Heather and I still talk, but it's different now that we don't live so close.
Adam and I now attend First Free Rockford and we have a small group. We have connections with other families that have small children like us, thanks to the amazing childcare that First Free offers. I attend Women's Bible Study on Wednesday nights, so I'm connected to and with women of the church. But, who is my Spiritual Mother? I think in time I will find out. We are new to the church and we are building more and more relationships.
I do truly feel like I have grown in my walk and I can't wait to see what is yet to come. God was truly the person that brought us back to Rockford and I have a stronger connection to this city more than I ever have before. I'm proud to say I live here. My family is here, my church is here and that makes me very happy. In a very short amount of time I have found true and good friends that along with myself have accepted Christ. Some of these people I have met in the most unexpected places...Instagram being one of them. I'm grateful for how these people have been brought into my life and I can't wait to see how these relationships build.
My spiritual journey has been short yes. In 2012 I wrote about our testimony (Adam and myself) which can be found here. I'm a new Christian, but I don't think that means that I can't be as spiritual and looking to be fed just the same as someone who would be considered an 'old' Christian.
So currently, I am reading my bible and studying Titus, Praying For Boys, Religion Saves, and Jesus Calling. I'm busy to say the least and try and squeeze in as much reading as I can with two littles keeping me extra busy.
So, back to where this all started: Spiritual Mothers. The greatest thing I read from this article and learned is we cannot and should not live and grow in the gospel alone.
When Adam and I attended CCC we had a small group and had others to help keep us accountable. I truly think that my Spiritual Mother at that time was Heather. She was the welcoming face to the church when Adam and I felt like all hope was lost. Again refer back to our testimony. If I needed advice I seeked out Heather. She was a more mature Christian than I was and I felt like I had a lot that I could learn from her. Now having moved out of Zion I'm trying to figure out who my Spiritual Mother is. Heather and I still talk, but it's different now that we don't live so close.
Adam and I now attend First Free Rockford and we have a small group. We have connections with other families that have small children like us, thanks to the amazing childcare that First Free offers. I attend Women's Bible Study on Wednesday nights, so I'm connected to and with women of the church. But, who is my Spiritual Mother? I think in time I will find out. We are new to the church and we are building more and more relationships.
I do truly feel like I have grown in my walk and I can't wait to see what is yet to come. God was truly the person that brought us back to Rockford and I have a stronger connection to this city more than I ever have before. I'm proud to say I live here. My family is here, my church is here and that makes me very happy. In a very short amount of time I have found true and good friends that along with myself have accepted Christ. Some of these people I have met in the most unexpected places...Instagram being one of them. I'm grateful for how these people have been brought into my life and I can't wait to see how these relationships build.
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